and to top it all off, we have gotten our assignments and deadlines already. and the statistics one is the worst. involving research proposal plus consent from australia to do the research plus ethical issues = migrane.

and there were several group projects. so assuming that the 3 of us would stick together, we set plans to meet up and do. but alas, thats not the end to our problems as yet...

there's still the complications of the affairs of the heart. one of our closer friends, kolk, is attached. well seemingly so. at first she was busy trying to matchmake ME with this guy. no reason for her to do so seeing as how i have no chemistry with that guy so i smelt something fishy.. turns out she was the one interested in the guy and was trying to push him away to someone else (they call it displacement), so that she could hide and not open up her feelings.. something to do with her past experience also. don't blame us, we're all psychoanalysts due to school. anyway, as i was saying.. she likes him subtlely. he likes her? definitely. i asked him myself. couldnt take the suspense anymore and so i asked away. but at that time, he was still afraid of rejection and did not dare do anything. and so, me, the love guru encouraged him on. i mean like, cmon man there's enough couples out there who obviously like each other but are too afraid to make the first move. and look where they end up.. there was a quote i took from a book that went like that..

"If u met the person of ur dreams, it's ur duty to go after them. whatever it takes, whatever anybody else might think of u. the world if full of people who end up walking down the aisle with the wrong person. all those happy endings gone awry just because nobody is brave enough to say what they really want when they want it. to risk a little bit of disapproval. to take a chance on love.."

so i told him that if he doesnt do anything, it might be too late. and besides, u won't lose what u never had in the first place right. he was like "really?" oh umm. yah really. haha. but well, he seemed really hesitant so i told him i wasnt going to force him to do anything that he wouldnt want to. and like what curt said, there's only so much u can do to help push the person in the right direction. the rest has to be depended on them and fate.. =) i liked that.

and guess what. they're together now. as in kolk and the guy. apparently they're supposed to be testing out first and if it doesnt work out, they'll just stick to being friends.. thats what she says. but it contradicts widely with her actions though. like previously she insisted that she only liked him a tinge. and as a friend too only. and that he was more compatible with me. wth. haha. east meets west ur head. anyway, so much for not liking him. when they were in school together, they couldnt stop smiling at each other and stayed in their own world as we went about getting lunch and stuff. *rolls eyes*. so much for being friends huh. haha i mean like i'm happy for them. really. seriously. but then, if u're obviously in love, why bother denying and making such a big fuss about everything. coz it doesnt stop here. apparently the overprotective guy was afraid that kolk would be hurt by the teasing around in school and messaged EVERY single one of us in the group to say not to tease her as they are still not very stable. ok wad? u just announced ur becoming a couple thing to everyone and tell people not to tease ur darling. oh rightt. firstly, where's ur sense of humour. its all in the good will of fun. we asked her. she doesnt mind. so why should u. and 2ndly, i think its rather insulting to tell people what to and what not to do. we're all havin fun and laughing and teasing together. so what are u gonna do? get pissed and sulk in one corner becoz u think we're giving her pressure?

that is definitely not an attractive trait in a guy. and i kinda regret helping to encourage him to chase her now. i mean like, yeah its good that they are happy together. but still.. he doesnt have to go to that extent right. and now, the 2 of them are incredibly sticky it goes to the point of sickening. as quoted from shaz. lol. i might sound critical here, please don't mind this cynical old lady. i was saying they were sickening becoz they seem to have to spend every single moment of their lives together. apparently seeing each other everyday in class is not enough. they have to do projects together. and abandon shaz and me. so much for saying that their personal styles don't match. sometimes, her words and her actions seriously don't match. and thats not all. we arranged to have a trio outing to watch hancock. and guess what, she wants to bring her new bf along. wad? lucky shaz was firm and said no way. we're not double dating here hello. u and him can get chummy on ur own dates all right.. i mean like we all need our own personal space too right? where's the time out for girlfriends if u're gonna want to have him sticking to ur side like super glue every minute of the day?

so yeah basically, shaz and i are really sore. happy for them is one thing. but sore that kolk has to turn out to be a friend abandoner after she gets attached is another whole matter altogether. and so shaz went to complain to her ham. and tells me how sweet and funny he is that he understands what she and i are going through. haha wait. he knows about me too? umm ok. don't u go do another kolk thing and leave me abandoned all right. ::sigh:: i wanna tell curt too. but so far, i only told him about the encouraging the guy part. he's too busy nowadays what with work taking up 13.5 hours a day now. so everytime we talk, we talk about ourselves instead of other people. hahahh. lame i know. but ::sigh:: i wish for this summer break to end sooooon.

oh well, whoever said love was going to be a simple easy thing? its complicated. a whole different dimenstion altogether. maybe we should all abstain from love. then we wont get pricked by the red lovely seductive rose and no one gets hurt.