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fragilelife..
Friday, March 30, 2007
9:43 PM
bored at home trying to read the stack of photocopied notes on internet studies.. *yawn* chelsie is sleeping.. zzz.. not even the sound of his little basketball bouncing in front of him interests him.. boo. seeing the number of assignments to be handed in by april just leaves me in a state of depression.. i seriously am sick of assignments.. and topics that are so dry too.. YAWN.. i'm yearning to do something exciting.. i need a holiday. don't mind flying over to surprise wince actually. how fun that would be huh. just give me the cash. i'll fly over straight away. why cant i win some lucky draw or something.
becoz i have not joined any. duh-uh. recently, a friend of mine's grandma just passed away.. almost everyone made a fuss out of it and started surrounding her and asking her stuff etc. well, i asked her one qn. how is your grandma? and her answer? she's dying. brisk and straightforward huh. well, not that i blame her for speaking so crudely or anything. knew it must be really tiring to answer everyone's queries. so thus, i kept my small mouth shut and refused to comment on anything. i knew how she felt. i felt that way twice already in my 20 yrs of life. having a grandad who died even before i was born and with my mum's dad dying when i was 10, followed by my dad's mum when i was 15 left me treasuring my one and only grandma left. crying till there were hardly any tears left, i felt numb towards any form of sympathy or anything. you're sorry to hear about my grief. ok thanks. but does that bring them back to life again? no. so keep quiet and leave me alone. guess i was kinda bitter when i think about it now. life's fragile. you never know when its going to float away, like a piece of paper admist the sky. i miss my grandparents too. man.. i better start doing something else. being bored only serves to make my mind wander and divert from the realities of life. earth to elaine.
Posted by el@!ne.
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