what a marvellous year 2007 is turning out to be.. i cant tell you how much i love this year.. not only do i get to face HER, a.k.a. the witch, in school for like 7-8 hours everyday, my friend has turned out to be someone who is insensitive, tactless and ultimately blunt. well, her being blunt is definitely the understatement of the year.. i shall not name her, for privacy sake, but i'm sure you know who you are..
this friend of mine.. i have been tolerating her lack of tact from last year onwards till now.. and my patience is beginning to wear off.. firstly, i don't understand why as friends she would use such words such as 'loser fart', 'old hag' and 'spastic'.. i mean if its a joke or what, i can understand and its funny.. but it can only be funny for a while don't you think? from last year, she has constantly called ME an old hag.. why? simply because i was born just 10 months earlier than her.. and we're of the same age.. i don't know what her freaking problem is but i suppressed my unhappiness with a tight smile just shrugging it off as a joke.. but this year? she continues on.. look, try putting yourself in other's shoes before you start calling them hurtful names can you? how would YOU feel if you were being called one? i'm sure you wouldn't like it either right? i raised that with her and her reaction? "i know you're just trying to piss me off so it wouldnt work" totally beside the point. well.. wadever..
what are friends for? for sharing laughter and fun together right? and when friends mention things that they do that are kinda lame, what do we do? laugh.. roll your eyes or wadever right? what does she do? she calls you a loser fart.. just simply because you were trying to tell her what you did.. thanks man.. i got fed up once and told her i was a winner and not a loser.. she laughed.. okay.. wadever.. i would gladly appreciate it if you would stop calling people around you that.. though you might not realise it, it is REALLY hurting and insulting..
and when i was bored in class i had on an expressionless face and pressed my lips together to form a tight smile.. others laughed when they saw it, and she? she just said 'oh she's doing that spastic smile thing.." even if it was meant to be a joke, it certainly didnt sound like one.. do you know the meaning of spastic? do friends go round telling their friends that they look spastic? do i look like i'm spastic to you? do you belittle me to that extent? and i thought you were my closer friend..
and you know what, she NEVER accepts criticisms.. last year when she showed my other friends and me her idol's photo, our first reaction was that he had a pretty boy look... and they agreed that he did indeed look like a girl... and when i told her that on another incident, you know what she said? "better that yours wad! your idol is gay!" right.. just because i spoke the truth, you had to criticize my idol? is this a competition? see who can criticize's the other's idol more? of course i simply shrugged and let her 'win'.. i didnt want to argue any further.. so this year, i was smarter.. she had a new idol and this time, i told her i had no comments.. simple.. 2 peaceful words.. and she will leave my idol alone... if having no comments can stop her from criticizing about my idol, why not? from now on, i shall be the neutral girl.. peace reigns..
but today unfortunately i got pissed.. so much for being the neutral girl huh.. yeah.. i just couldnt help it.. about 1-2 weeks ago, this guy had asked her whether she knew how to play the drums because he had seen her twirling the pen around her fingers. she went like 'everyone can do that wad.. doenst mean i know how to twril my pen means that i can play drums..' ok that was the first part.. and then she asked me if i knew how to.. i replied no.. i don't twirl pens you see.. any problem with that? apparently she has. just today, she questioned another friend of ours if he knew how to twirl pens and he said ya.. and demonstrated.. but he didnt play drums.. and she went like 'see! doesnt mean that people who can twirl pens means that can play drums!" and thats not all.. she continued with "everyone can twirl wad! apparently except for elaine!" and so i retorted with "so what if i cannot twirl pens? does it matter?" seriously! is it a requirement that everyone has to learn how to twirl pens in order to qualify to be part of society or somehing? and my other friends tried to cool me down.. it was not that i was furious with her or something.. its just that the things she say.. are sooooooo tactless.. she just doesnt think about how the other person is going to feel after saying the words that come out of her mouth.. so much for taking the guy's words with a pinch of salt.. just something he said weeks ago and you are harping on it even till now.. more like a carton of salt huh..
and when we took the lift without telling her the other day when we collected our results, she was pissed.. the lift was about 3/4 full and 2 of my friends and i were nearest to it and could manage to squeeze in which was why we didnt get to tell the rest.. and she and my friend took the stairs.. thought all was ok.. we even waited for them downstairs and guess what she said when she saw us.. "idiots la! we took the stairs.. exercise ma.. unlike some people.. lazy.." WHAT? we didnt even say anything! i pretended that i didnt hear that remark even though i was nearest to her and i heard.. now its our fault that we went in without telling u? and then you scold us under your breath? what? what? what??????? and to think i was defending you all the way when another friend of ours mentioned that he/she didnt like your character..
i know you would definitely read this as you know of this blog.. i'm not afraid of hiding it from you as i want you to know about how i feel about you instead of gossiping about you behind your back as i still regard you as a closer friend of mine despite all these.. i still wanna maintain our friendship but i know it would definitely be affected if i were to confront you about it.. so just think about what i have said and hopefully our friendship will strengthen and overcome all obstacles.. hopefully you'll understand and not misunderstand that i'm trying to criticize or bash you or anything..
Posted by el@!ne.
